Change

"Forgive my father"

I took you to the city

carried you in my pocket

a little blue and dog-eared

from long waiting

but still ready

an empty box

that never leaves my mind

I kept looking

over my shoulder

looking for your face

swaying like a pendulum

looking forward

holding back

looking forward

holding back

Until dizzy eye

couldn't see

I fell asleep

my heart calling

(the line was busy)

across time

for no answer

for the answer

for no answer

for the answer

So instead

I took your hand

and prayed

And began to wait

for you

Now instead of

chasing me

through days

and  two ways unsettled

wounded

and

willful

I wait for you

to come to me

to sit beside me

in a calm place

for us to smile

and not to speak

 but to be in a place

At Peace

unchanging